I know heaven is a wonderful place. It's where my best friend in the world is–Jesus. So when this life gets hard–and sometimes it does and stays that way, minutes turn into hours, hours to days, and days to months and years–I do think of heaven as a place I want to be. Now and always.
I reached this place while mourning. I'll mostly leave the subject of mourning for another day–but there are times when mourning has nothing to do with a loved one dying, but has to do with the fact we live in a world that was cursed. Everything from nature to the condition of the human soul is dying, decaying, slipping away into lifeless dirt.
Things feel useless, fruitless, unfixable.
But then God...
No matter how long He makes me stay on this earth, I know He has a reason, a purpose for me being here (although I admit, I whine at times about wanting to go home).
You can't pick and choose the parts of His planning that we want or don't want, but we can enjoy the security of knowing this–with the risk of sounding clichéd–He holds us and our future in His hands.
Knowing the steadiness of His embrace is the only thing that keeps me going some days.
I've learned a few things about God the last few years, and what I've heard is true–His timing is impeccable. He is watching us from conception to final breath–and beyond...Yet 'watching' isn't strong enough of a word. He walks beside us, breathes with us. Loves us.
The decay of this world is inevitable, but the thing that lives on is our spirits. If you have not already, my prayer for you is that you allow God to save your spirit from the death you live in and give you the life He paid for on the cross and issued upon His resurrection.
I'll leave you with some thoughts I had awhile back about the meaning of this life (as posted on Facebook):
"My thinking has been that two hundred years from now no one will know anything about me, about who I am, or what I did. Makes a body feel inconsequential, know what I mean? But then today I was thinking about eternity and realized something...It's not who we are in the past or the future, it's who we are now, in the present. Because we dwell within Eternity. These are our moments. Our time. We have our own little patch of eternity that has been carved out for us by God. Wow..."